Sorry to ponder but i cant help but feel like this:

Im always like this even before i had my endo surgery i was like is this all my imagination? I was so worried that i didnt have it but i do have stage 3 endo.

Now with Ella shes due to go to the paed next week and i hear of so many other women who have babies that are way worse than what ella is and i feel so guilty! I always wonder if putting her on soy was a good idea, then i wonder if shes as bad as i think its horrible.

I know theres something up with her occasionally bringing up undigested losec and spilling in between feeds but she doesnt really cry when she spills maybe coz the losec stops the acid production, and lately shes not taking the bottle aswell as normal its a real fight. But even tho shes only almost 4 months old i cant help feeling and wondering if her just refusing to take her bottle is a stage shes going through? Shes only just started doing it maybe since last week where other times she would just fuss for ages.

Ahhh im sorry for my post but i kinda feel worthless and like im worrying that she has reflux when she hasnt ya know?

Gah im sorry

Actually i thought if i listed her probs someone could give me an honest answer?

Spills After burping sometimes vomits, has also been known to vomit alot of mucus and it comes out her nose that was when she was on dairy not since shes been on soy.

Brings up undigested losec 19hours after having it

Excessive Gas

Spills in between feeds

Fusses on the bottle

Can hear her tummy gurgling right through her feed

Has exema on her face

Had slow weight gain before she went on losec

Had issues bringing up her wind

Thats all i can think of right now off the top of my head.

Thanks for reading

The paed will be able to help to find out if it is reflux but - sounds like you have 'performance anxiety' which is what I get whenever we have a big appt coming up LOL. I stress about how bad Katey is and then when she is 'good' I think maybe I am making it up and really she isn't so bad? Then something causes her reflux to flare up and then I know for sure that yes, there is a problem ... until she is 'good' again LOL.

It's interesting to think about the psychological aspects on the parents - the mum especially. Good luck with the Paed, hope they can help - reassurance is always a good thing .

Thanks chicka thats exactly what im feeling like right now ok feeling a bit more normal now that you have said that lol bring on weds i just want to talk to him and find out everything ya know?

I remember thinking the same when Emily was younger. Sometimes I think I pretty much convinced myself that it was all normal, after all what did I know having never done this before!

I still procrastinate before making an appt to see our pead, thinking maybe he will think I am just a neurotic mother and Emily isn't really that bad.

Sounds like reflux to me! I hope your appt goes well.

Kate

Yer same i think its coz i dont know any better! If she was my 2nd and my 1st wasnt like this then i would have no doubt but yeh i cant help but wonder and it sucks!

Bring on Wednesday.

Thanks for listening to me being a neurotic first time mum lol

I know exactly how you feel - I go through the same thought processes and often wonder if maybe I'm just being paranoid (or if other people think I am). It is really hard. Especially as most other people don't see the whole picture that we as mothers do and the baby might appear perfectly healthy and happy to those just spending a short time with her. I find it amazing how quickly I forget (or perhaps gloss over?) how bad the bad patches are when there is a good patch.

I think the main thing is to believe in your instincts as a mother - after all you are your baby's "expert" and spokesperson. I have found it really helpful keeping a food diary as I also describe all her symptoms, sleeping patterns etc and then when I think "oh maybe I'm just imagining it all" or "is it really so bad?" I look back and remind myself.

With the feeding issues - Anneke is a nightmare to feed when she's been bad with reflux - breast or bottle - and it does feel like a battle (or torture!).

Good luck with the paediatrician - I hope you get some answers.

LOL That could be me thinking all this too! It is performance anxiety ...so true! Its like the only time your child brings on the charm is when your trying ot get some answers and you really need the pead/gp to listen and believe you! I had simialar thoughts today as I just found out my wee babe has a viral infection and laringitis(sp)....so I was thinking omg so the reflux med didn't need be upped...but then the gp made me feel better when he went to check her throat out and there was milk still sitting back there 2.5 hours after a feed.
Trust your instint hun and good luck at the peads

Know exactly what you mean, I went through that with no. 1 and again with no.2 and by the time we got to no. 3 I knew that it wasn't just my imagination and that we really do have a problem. I agree with gutz_cmum1 our kids are usually all sweetness and light as soon as we get to the dr/paeds office.
I have kept a diary of the all kids food, sleep, behaviour, meds etc and it really helps when you can look back at it and see that it really has been bad/good.
From what you say it sounds like reflux to me, our kids have had most of the probs you listed. On the up side the older two have outgrown it and I'm sure no.3 will eventually.
I think all good parents question their judgement sometimes, but it sounds to me like you are doing a great job.
Best of luck with the paed next wed, let us know how it goes.

hey,

my little boy is one month older than yours and gosh it sounds familar. Ring the dieticians at nutricare - they may suggest staring you away from soy and towards pepti jnr - neonate in which case you would want the paed to support you so you can get it cheaper.

Another symptom I seem to have is - very active - hyperactive.

You know that I think you are a great (and wildly concerned) mother, you are doing so well! Have no fears everything is going to be Ok!