Thank you guys.

We got the little plaque from Glover's on Saturday.. really amazingly fast - 4 days after I emailed them (even after him telling me it would be a month or so). Its just lovely. I also got a teddybear in the post on Saturday, a personalised one from some friends overseas with Koby's name on it... Very cuddly and yeah some comfort.

Trudes looks like you have been/are on a long painful journey as well... huge hugs .

Redlady I'm trying not to panic. In fact most of the time I'm not thinking about that, medical side of things, as the next tests and specialist appointment seems so far away. Just trying to get through the days as they come.

TY for listening to me.

Oh thats great that your plaque arrived so fast! Mine took about 6 weeks.

One day at a time, just keep swimming.

I know... was so nice to get it.

Looks like I might have to go back into hospital. Here I am.. trying to 'rest'. Been into doctor (after MW made appt for me) and he said (TMI) bleeding should be easing off by now - not getting worse Have had bloods done, and when he gets the result he is going to contact the hospital and see what they say.. this is after my saying I really, really, really didnt want to go back to hospital. He was origionally going to send me straight in, but decided instead of me going in and them doing tests and me waiting round there for the results, i might as well wait around at home. The worse thing is if I go in, it will be to the same ward where we had Koby, I really dont want to go there. And what if I have to stay in over Xmas... just when I thought Xmas time couldnt get any worse...

Problem... is - I cant swim. Maybe I need to learn.

Please contact Janet from Sands Waikato... you do not have to go through this alone. You would be surprised how sharing with people who can empathise and support you from 'your perspective' can help. I wish there was something more personal I could do to help you

Thank you. I will contact her. Just yeah. Soon.

My blood tests came back all ok, apart from my iron being really low. And the bleeding just stopped. Completely. Weird. But good weird.

Have also found a really lovely headstone, which we will sort in the New Year as they are closed now... but yeah i'm very pleased with it, not at all like everything else I had seen. Pricewise its amazing, ie we can actually afford it, and its better than anything else I've seen thats double or triple the price.

So that is making me feel quite positive at the moment. Looking forward to getting it. And there being a proper memorial for Koby, instead of just grass. And somewhere proper for leaving flowers and things. Acknowledgement I guess.

Pleased to hear something happened to make you feel more positive. You will find special things happen in the next year... Koby is a special boy helping you out from now on. Never forget that

Thank you. 6 weeks today. Feeling very BLAH.

Hi all, Im new here, have just been asked to moderate these forums.

mumto2plus2 I am in the waikato and I am a contact person for sands and also the chairperson for Sands NZ
I am more than willing to contact you if you like? PM me your number and times that suit and ill phone you, I can remember all to well making my 1st phone call and it was very hard.

Hi there,
Thanks. I should have seen this earlier... I've been home by myself for a couple of days (excluding work times) so would have been a good time with no kids around. I think you know my cousin in Wellington, your name sounds familiar from something she sent me. Anyway, will PM you. Thanks x