Hi Jo and Tardy, cool to have you come and join in.

Now before I forget a big to Tardy and Saffron for getting below the hundy mark!
That is great news and inspires me even more.

I've had another good day here as far as my positive thinking goes and even went out shopping without going and buying any junk food to eat which is kind of unheard of for me lately!

I started using the pedometer today and my reading is '4470'.
Not that great however I didn't put it on until about 9.30 and I was up at 6.30am and then took it off at 7pm when put son to bed.
Hehe just trying to make it seem a bit better! I shouldn't make up excuses though as I do that too much and thats whats got me where I am!
My aim for tomorrow is to walk to preschool and back with my son so should get at least 6000 tomorrow doing that.

Saf, you said you were going to get a pedometer as well, do you have a goal number of steps for each day/week and if so/not shall we make some?
Anyone else feel free to join in too.

Joan, did the rain hold off for the walk to kindy?

Tardy, I know what you mean about being over the whole weight loss thing as I feel like I have been there done that and now ended up in an even worse position so many times in my life.
Agree re the lifestyle thing though as I really want to loose weight, get healthy and keep it off this time!

Jo, you are amazing with what you have already achieved and sure it sucks that you put alot of weight back on again but it really shows how determined you are to be going for it again and I would love to be around to help you and everyone else including myself celebrate getting under the hundy mark.

Boomba, how as your first day back at school?

Hope you all have a great day tomorrow.

Claire

Hi
Well I lost 1kg this week so I;m still in the hundy club but a bit closer to my goal of dropping under it!

Had a great day yesterday eating wise and I went to the gym for a VERY hard class so feeling very virtuous!

BBL:)

Hi everyone

No the rain didnt hold off, grrr so wanted to get a walk yesturday and today its pouring rain as well.

Need to sort my house out this week having a garage sale this weekend so going to get rid of everything we dont use. Way too much stuff and kind of seeing it as a clean start for everything as well.

Right best get started.

Great loss Boomba!
And I know what you mean about feeling Virtuous after a hard workout!
I got out of bed early this morning and jumped on the treadmill and feel great for it

One of my biggest downfalls is the fact that I dont often have breakfast, and then make stupid choices later in the day.
Best I go and find something "good" to eat now before I fall in to that same trap later on me thinks!

Have a great day ladies

I keep losing my bids for either a treadmill or xtrainer, grr wish we had some more spare money.

Might talk to dh and see about getting it for my christmas.

My aim is to get to the 90's in the next three weeks.

Will have to try super hard.
Have no motivation today grr.

Wow Boomba and Jo you guys are doing great with the exercise, keep up the good work.

Joan bummer about loosing out on the x trainer, they must be in demand at the moment with people wanting to shape up for summer.

I hear you on the lack of motivation today, have a sick little boy and had all of about 3 hours sleep last night so it has been hard going today and I have turned to food and done no exercise!!!
I thought about going for a walk once he was finally in bed this eve but that's all I managed to do unfortunately and instead have been blobbed out in front of boring tele eating way to much

Fingers x your garage sale goes well and maybe you will make enug for the x trainer rather than having to get it for Xmas.

Must go little guy has just woken up screaming.

Well last week i ate really well but i had a cold so i turned to coke to help soothe my throat and well all i can say is never again, my weight went up 200g each day i drunk it, i still ended up with a 0.8kg lose on Monday, and since i started drinking water again 0.5kg disappeared in a day, so the water must have flushed things out.
Regarding goals i have set mine and my ticker for 90kgs, it feels really good to know im a 3rd of the way there, if i set it at 80 i would start to think it was impossible and so far away and start getting down about it
Xtrainers are great, im lucky mine fits in the corner really well and its great entertainment for my DS as he tries to climb all over it and great for the cars to zoom over and i won the auction $2 under my limit, it was about the same price as hiring one for 2 or 3 mths and i can always sell it if i stop using it.

Well....... my treadmill got sadly neglected this morning, as I chose the warmth and comfort of my bed, over exercise!
Ooooops!!
Never mind, I will make sure I get out for a walk at lunchtime today, and maybe after work as well.... although I have been invited out for a wine after work, so that may put an end to any notion of exercise I might have had! lol

Food was good yesterday, and I managed to eat a fair bit of fruit through the day, but I caved and indulged in a few too many pineapple lumps over the course of the day.
DAMMIT! I will just have to find a new home for the lollie jar.... FAR FAR AWAY from my desk

I might make a ticker thingee for myself.... although I dont know what goal I would put on it.
68 - 86kg is my weight watchers "goal range" so even if I aim for the top end of that, it means that I still have 46 kgs to go, and I think it is too hard to look at it like that!
Maybe I should make my first aim to get to 108kgs which was my lowest weight before I started gaining again.... that's "only" 24kg away!
*GROAN*

Have a great day ladies!!!

Jo just make it a small goal and once thats reached do the next.

I went out hunting for a xtrainer today, DH gave me a budget of $500 and theres nothing out there in the shops for that price that dont hurt my knee but all the other exercise machines made it worst. so im trying again on trademe.

Right need to fill up my water bottle again.

Northlandchick - have you tried Cash Converters?

I always forget about them until someone reminds me

we no longer have one up here i think might have a look in the yellow pages again. thanks for the idea though.

Hi guys
I've just been to the gym and I feel good, subway for tea, not the greatest but I couldnt be arsed to cook!
Looking forward to a torture session with my trainer tomorrow!

Hey everyone

Feeling a bit more back on track today, yay.
Good feeling as often when I have some hiccups and things not going well is when I just give up as it all feels too hard.

My son is feeling heaps better thank goodness as the last few nights of him waking up screaming in pain every 1.5 - 2 hours was doing my head in!

Look forward to hearing how you're all doing.

I fell off the wagon today and had a pie for lunch. I guess thats what you get when you arent planned and organised.
I had a big chat with my PT at the gym today, was telling her that sometimes I look at how much I have to lose and think 'say what now!' I guess its all about making it more achievable so I guess my first goal of getting under 100 is a good start.
But I have days when I think I so cant be bothered worrying about it all.

Hi
So where is everyone today?
We had school photos on Wednesday and we got the proofs back today to check spelling etc and it was awful. I couldnt look at myself without thinking how disgusting I am and wondering if I am ever going to get to a place where I actually like myself. I dont know if losing weight is going to help that mindset. I feel as though I dont deserve to be happy or liked by anyone. Does anyone else relate to this or am I just weird? So anyway, I spoiled my day by having a feed of macas for tea and now I am sitting here feeling bad and fat and negative. Why do I do this to myself?

Hey Boomba, big to you, sorry to hear you're feeling down.
No your not weird at all or if you are I must be totally weird too as I can relate to how you are feeling and know that when I feel disgusted with myself I don't want to be around other people and also feel like I don't deserve to be happy or liked by others.
It totally sucks and I can't believe either is that I keep on doing it to myself by eating the crap etc.

One of the reasons I started this thread is to do with photos and how disgusting I think I look in them.
We went to the Botanic Gardens recently to get a family photo taken and I had dressed up as nice as I could with what I could fit into and I couldn't believe how huge and yucky I looked in the photos and I find it so sad as I really want to have some lovely memories to look back on with my son.

I don't want to look at the photos years from now and remember how bad I felt and how gross I looked.
So I am trying to get my head around that if I try my best and get support here then hopefully I can get to where I want to be and when I look back at the photos I can see how far I've come and know that I don't want to go back there and waste any more precious moments in my life with feeling and eating crap!

It's really hard though and each day is a struggle which is why I am trying to change things slowly.

I started my chopstick challenge this evening as was having stir fry for tea so it seemed appropriate.
Was actually really good as it certainly slowed down my eating and I enjoyed my food rather than just wolfing it down and then finding the next thing to eat like I normally do.

Try to take it easy on yourself and remember that tomorrow is another day, in fact in the next minute, hour, day whatever you can make changes and don't have to carry on feeling bad and doing what you don't want to.

Take care and I'll check back in later.
Claire

Hi Chuff

It is so good to hear that there is someone else out there who feels like me!!
I have just had a bit of a cry and a hug with DH and after reading your post I am feeling a bit better. Have picked myself up, I have made a plan of all our meals next week and now I am off to bed.

Thanks so much for your support.

Ladies...

My name is Melissa all the girls from my MTBNP board call me Mel hehe i was wondering if i could join you lovely ladies....

I have also joined the BL5 and have so far had a loss of 1kg MY goal is to make it too double digits! by next year i am 30 and i am having a huge party!so as you can see by my ticker i have a bit to go

I gave birth to a beautiful baby girl in Aug o7 get this i put on NO weight i lost 15kgs After having Maddox i had a rough time and i started eating and drinking! <----- Drinking alot! I think i was out every weekend I have now packed on not only the 15kg's i lost but a xtra 7kgs and now weigh more than when i was 9 month pregnant

Anyway that is my storie! I am glad to come to a place where people are in the same position as me!



I feel your pain boomba, I got all depressed the other night and munched on KFC then spent the whole night disgusted in myself and was all upset! and thought the same thing! So you are not alone

So i will enjoy talking to you all

<------ thanks Chuff for starting the thread

Mel, welcome and great to have you join us.
I was like you and didn't put on any weight during pregnancy and actually lost a little (not 15kg though!!).
It was the first time that I can really remember that I actually ate what my body told me too rather than just what I wanted and it was great. I loved being preggers
After baby was born though I got PND and had loads of trouble breastfeeding and major lack of sleep as ya do and I just started eating and eating and the I find myself at my heaviest ever which is around 115kg!!! although I haven't weighed myself in yonks.
I am giving myself until the New Year to change my habits slowly and then I will weigh myself, re-evaluate things and go from there.
My sons 2 birthday is on New Years Eve so will weigh myself after that as don't want to get all depressed about the number on the scale and not enjoy his birthday.

Hope your feeling bit better today Boomba and yay for having a cry when you needed to and hugs from your DH.

Right gotta get back to my sewing.
Hope your all having a good day.

Hi all
feeling a lot more positive today, think a good nights sleep and a little perspective helped!
Have had a good day eating wise and having planned my meals for the week am about to go shopping.
thank goodness I have you guys who can understand me!