Oh Shipmate, that's not on. I don't blame you for being fuming.

Hi everyone, I've never posted on the internet before so this feels a bit strange.
I've had a look through some of the discussions and wondered if there is anyone out there in my situation?
I'm 42. I have four children froma previous marriage aged 17, 15, 12 and 7. My new husband has a 9 year old.
I had 2 miscarriages last year, never miscarried before so this was quite a shock.
Last week I went for a scan at about 9 weeks pregnant to be told that the foetus had not formed properly. Had my 3rd blood test this morning at 9am. My hormone levels are dropping. We're absolutely devastated.
The worst thing is I still feel pregnant, boobs sore and swollen, still nauseous etc etc. Apparently, if I want a D & C I'm going to have to go private and pay. I live in a rural community 3 hours from main hospital. The early prgnancy clinic tells me that they like to let things run their course naturally...but I just don't have the "time" to wait until I bleed...

fplus4 I hope you are doing ok. It is horrible enough at this time without the added stress of the situation in your area. It is so hard. I have waited for things to happen naturally and also had a d&c and know what you mean about feeling you dont have 'time' to wait for things to happen. I hope you are getting some help and support.

I have had a particularly crap day today. AF arrival today just broke me a bit (well quite a lot really). I am starting to realise that the anniversary of my first m/c and then 2 weeks later the edd of my second angel are approaching and so today was just a bit too much for me. My family are coming to visit for easter (with their children) and I know that that will be hard simply because the conversation needless to say will feature my niece and nephew alot and a close friend from primary school is due around that time....... Today I just want to avoid it all. Oh well at least it is still a few weeks away and I will have regained my equilibrium by then.

fplus and Jay, hugs, I find that Im making sure Im super busy and have lots of excuses or reasons to go and have some time out or space so that I can be sad for a minute or just compose myself.

The other thing Im finding is that some situations that Im worrying about are more of a worry than a reality. I was so worried when I picked my mum up from the airport a few weeks ago (the first time I saw her since the m/c that I would loose it in the airport, nothing like a hug from your mum to make you feel emotional) but in reality I was just really happy to see her, I was really only super sad when we said goodbye, which is expected.

Fplus how are you going now hun?

Fplus hope you are doing ok.

SM I know what you mean about the things being more worry than reality. So many things that I have worried about after my m/c's I have survived a lot better than I expected so it will probably be the same with all that is coming up - however on a bad day I cant stop from worrying about things

Feeling crap today. Trying to feel happy for a childhood friend (our families have kept in touch) who had her baby last night. All that came into my mind was the old feeling sorry for myself - what about me, why didnt I get to keeo my babies . I am pleased for her but at the moment just cant quite get that out. Just been one of those weeks for hearing others good news - another friend anounced her second pregnancy over the weekend. Oh well, one day.

Hugs Jay M hard to be happy for others some days.... Just keep reminding yourself your goal is your baby not your friends, when I think like that it takes the sharp edges off the pain away.

I know what you mean SM. Most the time I manage that quite well but yesterday was just one of those days. Back on the positive upswing again now. Have decided it is time to treat myself to another massage and relax fully so booked one for next week. Ahhh relaxation here I come!

in a few days its been a year since i found out that we were having another baby, been quite cool and calm this month, taking it easy, quietly hoping that somthing has happened this month.
In May it will be a year since my MC, not looking forward to that either.

TM. I have my for you (and for me too). I am at same point - a year since I found out I was preg and toward the end of May a year since I lost that first baby. Feeling remarkably calm at the moment about it but do worry how I will feel as the date gets closer.

bumping up in case any newcomers want "general chat"

me me, lol How are we?